why do people love to mess with other people's life

thousand times dat i told myself, "lyla.. u dun need to clarify anything.. u noe urself, people dear to u noe precisely who u r.." but i just need to.. i just need to..

first thing first.. perhaps people who supposed to noe the real fact might not read this blog, but i posted this for da sake of reminding myself on how lame n childish people can be.. looking for ways to drag other people down.. *sigh*

yang i dun understand myself is dat wut have i done to deserve this? i am doing my job as a psychologist.. i am being a friend who listen, love and care.. wut is wrong with being a friend?

those friends who know me dearly wud noe how i appreciate friends.. how i always find a way to help em.. n people who noe me dearly noe dat i'm not dat kinda girl who people always assume i am.. i love to socialize but i noe my limits.. i noe where i'm heading and i draw a line when i need to..

abah.. it is sad dat i cudnt talk to u anymore.. it sucks dat i dun have u to cry with after all ths things dat people said about me.. but i will always remmber ur advice.. and i will not go even near to the border that u have drawn for me.. even u're not there to warn me, even u're not there to tell me wut is right n wut is wrong.. i noe for sure u will always be there to watch over me.. only ur spirit keeps me feel safe n secured.. ur love made me feel complete and satisfied.. and ur advice dat i shall remmber and carry thruout my life..

to those people.. pls.. stop doin this to me.. to anyone.. always believe in karma, wut goes around comes around.. as for me, i noe dat wutever happens, happened for a reason.. so cheer up lyla.. as long as u noe who u are, wut u do.. no one can bring u down.. :)

Ramadhan without Abah

Sigh..
i know tak baik mengeluh, esp di bulan yang mulia and penuh berkat ni..
but i really am miserable.. cuz i miss abah a lot.. A LOT..

every year.. i can't wait to come home to abah.. we talk, we laugh, we accompany each other.. n yes.. i do sleep with him every time i gt back, at least one night together.. abah is my life.. he is da best dad in the whole entire world, he is a great friend, he is my whole world.. there's no one cud replace him in my heart..

n not being with him this special month of ramadhan, and of course for raya, i dunno if i'm goin to be strong enuf to face this.. God, pls gimme the strength to face the world without abah.. and tempatkan abah di kalangan orang-orang yang beriman.. he is a good person, a good husband and especially the best dad dat anyone cud ask for..

dayyyumm.. i must have gt carried away by one of Dr Ramzah's blog post.. or izzit just my inner part of me waiting for the time to explode for hiding this tears for months..

*sigh again..

Email Hantu??

email hantu is when u received an email in which u dun even know who da heck da person is, and dat person have been stalking u for quite sum time he/she cud crapping about ur life..

what shud u do? just like facing any other hantu,

1st.. buat2 tak nampak or buat2 tak tau
2nd.. walk away hoping dat u'll never have to face dat again
3rd.. baca la apa2 yang patut supaya dat hantu wont kacau u again..

basically, dat is wut happened to my dearly friend.. but apparently my friend tidak mengamalkan ketiga2 yang i sebutkan tadi.. so bila dia :

1st: melayan hantu tersebut; consequences dia ialah hantu tersebut akan terus mengacau
2nd: reply plak balik.. lagi la hantu tu ligat mengacau sebab tau gangguan dia diterima dan disambut baik :P
3rd.. risau gile dengan keadaan tu, according to psychological explaination is dat he tend to put 2 and 2 together and started to hurt those people around him..

so.. ingat.. sesiapa yang berdepan dengan apa jua jenis hantu.. tak kira la d actual ones or email2 hantu nie, amalkan la 3 cara yang i highly recommend kan di atas..

selamat mencuba..
or shud i say, renung2kan dan selamat beramal.. hahahhahahahhahahha ;)

Merdeka Day Out

For one whole day today, i was out..
Pagi2 lagi dah kuar jadi hakim untuk final pidato kemerdekaan peringkat UMS dan sekolah-sekolah.. yang memalukan, semua pemidato2 sekolah are waaaaaaayyyy better than pemidato2 uni.. buat malu jer.. 3 orang yang jadi hakim this morning, Abg Fahmy as ketua hakim, Fa and Me tiga2 tepuk dahi tgk kualiti pemidato2 UMS.. adui.. mmg la UMS ni dah ketandusan pendebat2 n pemidato yang baik.. or mmg ada but then bakal tak tercungkil, we never know.. kan? anyway.. dalam keempat2 finalis pemidato sekolah hari ni, ade sorang yang i can really see his potential.. darn good.. terus abg fahmy offer nak bagi recommendation klu dia nak masuk UMS.. n i do hope he'll consider la..at least ade gak UMS pnya harapan utk masa depan..huhuuhu

abis pidato, me n few fwens went to 1borneo.. i bought 2 new shirts.. then went and watched ghost house.. ntahapa2 ntah movie siam nie.. konon2 citer hantu.. tapi ntahapa2 ntah.. struktur hancur.. konsep lari.. penghujahan pun tak dapat kaitkan dengan konsep.. uhh.. sudah.. my mind dah terlalu byk unsur debat smpai movie pun nak dibidas.. :P

so malam nie stay je la kat rumah.. quite honestly, i dun even feel kemeriahan of merdeka day.. malam tadi pun i slept at 8.. sedih? maybe.. every year my late abah will call me to remind me not to go n celebrate merdeka kat luar.. i remmber da first year i'm in sabah.. maxis line ade prob until abah cudnt call me.. he tot dat i went out n sumthin happen.. da whole nite he cudnt sleep.. he even called everyone to da extend callin pak guard UMS to look for me!! abah.. abah.. i know he loves me dearly.. tapi i swear to God I was in my room stuck with my assignments.. so.. yesterday nite, despite no one called me to remind me not to go out, i stayed in my house.. tido, to be exact.. n coincidently i dreamt of abah.. of hugging him tight.. gosh i miss him.. just to see his smile n da warmth of his love... i cudnt 4gt da times he always hug n kiss me.. *sigh* but i know he's in a good place now.. watching over me.. n he will always be alive in my heart.. only Yassin and doa dat i cud give him everyday.. n a prayer so dat Allah will take a good care of him, n place him di kalangan orang2 yang beriman.. Ameen..

anyway.. maghrib tadi dah masuk bulan ramadhan.. cepatnya masa berlalu.. n moga2 ramadhan nie membawa kita semua seribu rahmat.. to everyone.. saya mohon ampun dan maaf sekiranya saya pernah membuat salah dan silap.. semoga kita melangkah ke bulan ramadhan ini dengan keinsafan supaya kita boleh mengerjakan ibadah puasa dengan sempurna.. ameen..

i'm bored.. really.. got no better things to do..

Pisces - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits: You're very tuned into your lover's feelings - and always doing something caring. Sweetness - you're the most romantic person your partner has ever met. You get easily swept away and are a total delight to fall in love with. Your negative traits: You are super duper sensitive and find it hard to get out of a sad mood. It's difficult for you to tell your sweetie no, even when you should. You often tell your partner what they want to hear, instead of being honest. Your ideal partner: Is straight from a fairy tale - the man or woman of your dreams Is a total romantic, with an artistic or creative side Loves to express their love to you, in all sorts of unique ways Your dating style: Dreamy. You like traditional romantic dates, like picnics in the park and candlelight dinners. Your seduction style: Fearless - you try what your partner suggests, no matter how unusual. Loving. You'll take your pleasure second, if necessary. Internal. A lot of your enjoyment takes place within your head. Tips for the future: Be more realistic. Your romantic ideal is nice, but it may just not happen. Let go of your fear of rejection - it's holding you back from being with your true love. Open yourself up to a new love. The person you think you want make not be the one.. Best color to attract mate: Seafoam green Best day for a date: Friday

What's Your Love Profile?

another blog thing..

You are a City Girl!

Whether you live in the city or not, you've got the heart of a city girl. You're up on the latest trends - what's hot in music, food, and fashion. And you love to be on the go. Your perfect day is filled with tons of fun. Your perfect guy is a city guy, so head to LA, NYC, Sydney, or London to find him!

What Kind of Girl Are You?

wait a minute.. i have been to sydney.. y havent i found "da one"? :P

i am bold.. :P

You Are Extremely Bold

When you want something in life, you'll just go for it. You're never afraid of taking the plunge, even if there's risk involved. You don't shy away from speaking up or speaking your mind. You live life as it should be lived: with total enthusiasm and no fear.

Are You Bold?